It's a hot hot day

Today is August 26 2009, which is coincidentally the day of Chinese Valentine Day. So happy valentine's day for everyone who sees this =D

Also, today, it has been more than 5 months since my last post. I wonder if everyone has given up on my blog because i have been putting off writing it for so long.

Today i decided to come to this page because i remembered something i said a long time ago. It had something to do with smiling.

I remembered how many times in my life i had stopped smiling. Or at least the major events that made me not feel like smiling. Even in one of the prior posts i implied that i would be able to smile regardless of what was happening at that time and yet i failed.

Today, i am smiling again. Of cause i have also been smiling a lot the past few months but in this case, it is one of those special situations again.

In the blink of an eye, more than half of my friends are in relationships already. If not, they are down the path towards one. My point? I'm happy for them. This in turn brings me to quote something a friend said a couple of weeks back - "and then there was one". When he said that, he seemed a million miles away from his own story, today, he seems just within arms reach of it. It is now just left to how he decides and fate thus leaving that quote in my hands now.

Coming back to the smiling thing, i think i have developed a really bad habit. In the past, people always complained i never smiled enough. I took that advice and decided to smile. Guess what happened? Yep, i can't stop smiling anymore - not when i'm depressed, not when i'm sad, not when i'm lonely and perhaps, even not when i'm crying (i'm not sure about it actually, coz i haven't cried yet)

Along with that habit came another - "don't worry" or as i like to say it in japanese "dai jo bu" or in chinese, "放心啦". I'm saying this so much, there have been a few that are complaining i'm starting to hide my true feelings and thoughts. Maybe they are right, afterall, lately i feel like i don't want to bother or trouble anyone anymore. Everyone has their own troubles, and i don't feel like adding more for them.

I have a feeling with the paragraph above, people are going to want to kill me again... Better start running~~ haha~~

Anyways, till next time and don't worry about me.

Lai Jian Wei
3.44pm
26 August 2009