Today is a cloudy day....

Today is a cloudy day in Brisbane, and it is REALLY cloudy.... Not too mention cold(ughhh)....

I got up this morning cranky, depressed and sad.... The reason? Because i stopped being a vegetarian that's why. How many people still know what i mean by being vegetarian?

Some things in life are never easy. They take a lot of courage, determination and dedication. Me stopping to be a vegetarian is one of these things. And i had to choose one of the hardest dishes in the world to try and cook.

First of all, collecting ingredients is hard. Next the amount of skill required to cook is phenomenal. As of now i still have not found any reference materials or recipes. I'm doing this blindly, hoping that it will go right, praying lady luck is on my side. Lastly, for this dish to truly come out prefect and nice, i need divine intervention (a.k.a. The People Upstairs on my side).

I'm pretty sure some people will be going OMG now and wishing me best of luck etc. Let's just say, if i put the story down properly, people might be fainting this very moment. Similarly, many people might ask me, "If it's so hard and might not even work out in the end, why try in the first place?"

Answer is simple, if you want good food, of cause you must try and cook it right? I am the type of person that loves good food. Anyone that knows me long enough can bear witness to that, Plus plus, people are going to be very happy if this succeeds.

Enough of the cooking, anyway coming back.....

I got up being cranky and depressed. I hate it when that used to happen. I would be unable to study for the whole day and be extremely snappy towards people for the rest of the day. The worst part is, it somehow has a way of carrying itself over days at end. Making people so afraid of me for days and days.

"Oh sh*t" was the first thought i had when i woke up. I figured I'm going to have a lousy day ahead, not to mention my exams are just a few days away and i still need to study. Lunch certainly didn't go well either, spent an entire lunch not talking much. Talking so little until one of my friends went "Lai, say something already!!"

But, today I realized how much i have grown up.... I stayed focused, yay!! I shoved all my sorrow and depression aside and just put my heart down to study. Not only did i manage to a substantial amount of work done, that distraction cheered me up and made me realize that the problems i thought i had were not that big after all....

Now, I am a cheerful man. Ready to face up again to the daunting tasks before me, ready to take up that responsibility, ready to give it all my best again.

I am at peace with myself again.....

Lai Jian Wei
5.17pm
Sunday, 9th November 2008

p/s : you know something? I really feel like watching Lilo & Stitch now... Huh... But have to study la...